Glimpse in the NiCu

The nicu
My nephew is in the Nicu.
I can’t help but reminisce on what my experience was like when peyton was in the Nicu.
The nicu is a place of worry, sadness, and miscommunication.
You feel like every nurse has no clue what they are talking about…no one can clearly explain to you what’s happening in lay man terms…every nurse becomes your worst enemy. The are going on shifts or leaving and never know quite what to say…the only question that you are thinking of is…when will my baby get to come home? The nicu is a place you never expect to go to. The worst is when you are discharged from the hospital and leave without your baby..You are in a state where the last thing you want to hear is everyone else’s experiences…you are being denied to hold your baby, caress your baby, at times to feed your baby. All you have is hope and your heavenly father to lean on. Everyday seems to get better or worse…No one understands what to say or what not to say…Then the day finally comes when you receive a phone call and the voice on the other end says…”He’s ready, come get him.” You are finally filled with so much happiness. My experience will always remain a negative experience because of what I went through. I hope when future kids come it will be a sweeter experience. The nicu is a place no mom will ever understand what it's like unless they have gone through it themselves. The important thing is, peyton is totally fine now...and I have that to be always grateful for. I learned from this experience to have a higher sensitivity towards others that go through the nicu as well as patience...things happen in life you can't explain or predict..I love you Carter! Get well!!:)

Friends temple night

The holiday season is coming!! And being inside the temple during December is the best! Friends couple night Sat, December 12th 7 pm session. Draper Temple. Be there at 6:30 in the waiting area inside the temple. Hope you can make it!

My Parents R Amazing!!!!!

So... as most of you know we are moving to St. George January 4th for Steve to begin the Radiology program at Dixie State. Well, my parents decided to buy a second home in st. george and are letting us rent it!!!! yay!!!! I am so so so excited!!! It's brand new 4 bedroom 2.5 bath and 3519 square feet with a 3 car garage!!! And what the best part is, they close the end of december so we get to move right in! After thanksgiving dinner they also surprised each of us married couples with 7.5 feet tall christmas trees with huge boxes of ornaments!! Please please please if any of you are ever coming down to St. George for any such reason in the next few years...please come stay with us!! We will even put mints on your pillows and make you breakfast in bed!! I am so so excited to start decorating!! yay!! Love love my parents. Thanks mom and dad!!!

Church Quote

“It isn’t as bad as you sometimes think it is. It all works out. Don’t worry. I say that to myself every morning. It will all work out. If you do your best, it will all work out. Put your trust in God, and move forward with faith and confidence in the future. The Lord will not forsake us. He will not forsake us. … If we will put our trust in Him, if we will pray to Him, if we will live worthy of His blessings, He will hear our prayers” - Pres. Hinckley

Any suggestions?

So lately I have been having a hard time with not thinking life is so routine. I feel like all I ever do is change diapers, feed peyton, clean...ugh, which don't get me wrong...all things I love to do. But at the same time it's crazy how different my life is. Let me give you an inside look to me. I have a very strong personality. In the past few years I feel I have accomplished a lot by going on a mission, finishing college, getting married...honeymoon baby...And I feel like I have been so accustomed to my mind constantly being stimulated. Always learing, learning, and learning. Studying anatomy, the gospel, teaching kick boxing classes...getting all cute and ready for the day...to now I am a stay at home mom. And my mental stimulation comes from Oprah and Rachael Ray. Now, don't get me wrong..I do like being a stay at home mom. But at the same time I don't think I have the personality for it. I really truly don't. I feel their are many girls that can chill at home, be bored...have routine days and be so happy and content. Although, I do love Peyton a lot it's just not cuttin it for me....I need something....work? maybe. I dunno...it's a complicated situation cuz I don't want to have to do day care because I'll be down in St. George soon with no one to help out. Make best friends with ladies in my ward and get them to babysit? Who knows.... I am a very extroverted person that loves taking risks, setting and achieving goals.... and now, what goals do I have? It's hard. For all you moms...are you going through this same issue? How can I view life more optimistically? I know, I know...read the scriptures, find the answers. But is their more I can do? It has led me to take on scrap booking..something I have wanted to do, ok...got the hang of that now. So, now what? I feel so so limited on what I CAN do.. I would give anything to be back in college right now..pursuing a masters degree, perhaps? But in what? I'm at a loss. And I feel like it's those moms who are SO much like me, that can fall into post pardum depression so so easily. Because you are use to going going going to now....being a stay at home mom. Sure, I can go on walks..but once, again...I need something more. Please Help!!!

Family Pictures~Daniel Olsen Photography

The Devey Kids

Brooke, Steve, and Peyton

Lil sis Amber ~ 20

Devey Side of the Family

Ben And Krystal

Little bro Parker~ 18

Heather and Chris

Mama Mia and Papa

My parents just finished their landscaping in the front and back yard. Let's just say..it cost

a lot. So we decided to take family pictures there. It had been four years. A lot has happened since then. Me, Ben, and Heather all got married within one year from each other. Peyton came along in that year. And Carter will be coming in December.

HE GOT IN...

So Steve has been accepted into the Radiology program at Dixie State. This program is a two year program. Once it is completed he will recieve a degree in Radiography. His job title will be a radiographer. aka Rad tech. This two year program is credit wise, equivalent to a Bachelors Degree. Dixie State is turning in to the University or Utah in 2011. Which is a reason why Steve wanted to go to St. George. So when he graduates his diploma will state U of U. Once he completes the program we plan to move back up here for Steve to specialize in Ultrasound from the U of U. This will last for over a year. As he specializes he will be working as a Rad- Tech for the hospital. He will then have a job title as an ultrasonographer. The more he specializes, the more the salary will drastically increase. There are many areas to Radiology. The more you learn, more money you get. So that's the plan! St. George here we come! As for me, I bawled when I found out...mostly because I'm sad to go. This move will be very very hard for me. But it's only temporary, it will be ok! We already have a place to live. It's a 3 bedroom town house. So cute!! Now it's just a matter of getting the student loans, grants, and scholarship money under way. The program has insisted Steve does not work during the program. Because of this, we will live off of student loans. But Steve still will get a part time job with IHC so we can remain having the benefits of free health insurance and 100% tuition reimbursement. The program begins Jan 2. We hope to move after Christmas. Also depends on the part time job he finds. Thanks everyone for your love and support on this journey! This is a dream come true for Steve!

LOVE THE FALL...PICTURE TIME!!

I JUST LOVE PEYTON OH SO MUCH!!!

Peyton's First Time Swimming

Oh my...he loved it!!! Did not cry at all!! Just kept smiling and kicking!

Broken and True Friendships

I find it so intersting to me that as time goes on you really come to know who your true friends really are. This week I had some interesting experiences. To not go into too much detail...I have been shocked at how you think you know someone so well and are so close to and then all of a sudden they can erase you from their lives because of issues they are having with them selves. Or you think of someone as a good friend and they can suddenly exploit your name with out getting facts straight about everything. I feel I have a lot of close friends, but have found it's better to be more selective because it's so easy to get hurt by others. And then their is a sweet experience I had last night with someone who once was a best friend and despite our struggles in the past it has made us stronger and I still consider her one of my best friends today. YOu know who you are!! Friends are in our lives for a reason.

"Some people come into our lives and stay but a small moment while others trace a path on our hearts that lasts for an Eternity and as a result we are never the same."

I am so grateful for all of my friends. Love all of you!

Peyton's blessing

So our camera was stolen out of our diaper bag in St. George...long story. So we had developed these pictures for our scrapbook, but since they weren't on our actual computer from the camera we had to scan them in!

Andrew and Alyssa's wedding

I thought this turned out very cute!

IN LIMBO

Hey! So I thought to update everyone on what has been going on with the Radiology program. So Steve was chosen as the first alternate. Like how I had stated before 12 are chosen, if any of them decline...Steve gets in. Those who are accepted need to turn in their acceptance letters by October 9th. So it's still a waiting game for us. This year they placed high emphasis on GPA scores. If he doesn't get in Steve has now been thinking of going to Ultra sound school. It's sponsed by IHC and is through the U. It will be two years. The only downside is it doesn't start till next fall...yet waiting game, again. He would then, after specializing become an ultrasonographer. And we would end up staying here. So we shall see what happens. Stay tuned! In the meantime, I am super busy planning my mission reunion. I am in charge of the entire thing! Huge undertaking!

Wishing to move to St. George...

Hey! So i thought to update ya'll on what we are up to. We are still living in West Jordan. I am a stay at home mom. Peyton is three months old. Steve works at IMC in Murray as an anesthesia tech. Most of you know that Steve is wanting to go to Dixie State for their Radiology program. It is an area that has been of a great interest to him. Last year he applied for the program and they took 12 out of 35 and steve was chosen as an alternate which meant that if any of the 12 rejected their place Steve could be in the program. Unfortunately, no one rejected their place. Through the past year Steve has continued to focus on making it for 2010. The program is for two years. He would then go on to specialize in Ultrasound or X ray for one year afterwards. Steve has stated many times that he can not imagine himself doing anything else..We are in St. George now and he interviewed today. He unfortunately did not think it went too well...but he did have a very great blessing by his grandpa...so we will have to see what happens. We wait for a letter to come in the mail within the next two weeks. Steve was told in the interview that he could not work while he was in the program. So if he does make it in our plan is to live off student loans for two whole years and work part time. Obviously, we will pay the student loans back but for the time being we are focusing on getting all of my loans paid off by the time Steve is through with the program. I have never felt like student loans are considered debt. After the prophet came out and said it's fine to go into debt for educational reasons. Therefore, I feel no guilt for this choice we may make. We feel that Steve has exceptional experience. He has worked at McKaydee hospital in Ogden, Logan Regional Hospital, as well as IMC in Murray. His grades are good, not amazing. So we hope he makes it. Now if he does not make it our plan is to still move here to St. George and he will attend Dixie State and recieve a bachelors degree in Hospital Administration. He would have a year in a half to complete that. Of course, I hope to work at a fitness resort. I know that I could not have accomplished this goal without recieveing a degree in an exercise related field. And I've got that, baby!! I am currently still certified as an aerobic instructor. Allowing me to teach anything to kick boxing, step, weight lifting...pretty much anything I know how to teach. Not in ideal shape right now, but everyone can improve. I just need to wait a little bit till Peyton is a bit older so that I can go work. So this is our update so keep us in your prayers:)

ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY

ha ha... it makes me laugh to think I made steve rent a tux and dragged him up to Sundance to take these pictures I had always dreamed about! Downside, he saw me in my dress a month early. Oh well, the pictures were worth it. I remember on my wedding day the most important thing was the photography!!!

And let's not forget it was all about ME!! LOL

Ausgust 19, 2008

For our anniversary this year we had a picnic at the Bountiful Temple with Peyton. Then Steve and I went to dinner and a movie later that night..it was fun!

SALT LAKE BEES BASEBALL GAME

E.R.:(

On Thursday night i was over at a friends house (we won't mention names) changing Peyton's diaper on the floor. Her little boy was walking by with a wooden baseball bat and it hit Peyton on the side of his head. I called his pediatrician and he said to immediatley go to the emergency room. Holy Cow I felt like i was in an episode of E.R. about 25 people were swarming around him hooking him up to so many machines. He was monitored for two hours and then got to go home. Everything is great!

Ben & Krystal's Wedding Luncheon

Peyton's Picture Day -Daniel Olsen Photography-