my sweet baby girl :)

While I have 5 seconds to actually sit down & to not be holding Jordynn...i thought I might as well write her birth story. 

 I don't keep a journal, but this blog has been one for me.  :)  

As my induction date for June 10th was approaching, I began having cold feet wondering if it was the right decision not.  I just really wanted her to come when she was ready. I spoke to my Doc on the phone and he reassured me that b/c of Bradyn being a tight fit last time, that jordynn's weight was a factor in taking her at 39 wks and 3 days...just to be sure there wouldn't be any complications.  So i felt better about it and felt on board going into it.

We got a call at 5:30am on Aug 10th asking for us to come in at 6am!  As you know living in Eagle Mtn, i thought how would that be possible to get all the way to the Riverton hospital in that time.  I had called back to say we could do 6:30.  And were told if I didn't make it there by 6, my induction would be cancelled! So we freakin' scrambled like crazy, i pretty much think i set myself into labor!  We were driving down Redwood at like 80 and honking at cars to get out of the way!! it was pretty intense. 

 Surprisingly, when we got to the hospital- realized that it wasn't that busy and we could have totally been late if we had wanted to!  No clue who that was I spoke to on the phone!!

 Once I got all set up, it was about 7 am.  The nurse told me that I was having lots of contractions 2 min apart & asked if I could sense them...&  i could not at the time.  So I guess..you could say...maybe I would have wounded up at the hospital later that day to have the baby on my own?  who knows! So after a bit, i then asked for the epideral..amongst all the other AWFUL things...:)  And was ready to go. 

 My mom and mother in law, Laurie came on in the room and I began pushing.  We had explained to the nurse that when i get to be about a 6...that i go really fast...as in like 5 min the baby would come..and she thought we had more time...Well, I had also brought up how i usually throw up while pushing..and began feeling naseautaed (she had forgotten to start the Zofran drip) & I threw up once, and I heard gasps..and was told the head was out.  I tried to hold in throwing up again especailly b/c my Doctor wasn't even there yet!  it was just one nurse...and i couldn't i threw up a second time and Jordynn literally popped out and was on the bed!!! I recall being a little nervous at the time and then a flood of people came on in and my doctor came in with hands on his hips and said "well, she beat me!"  

Everything was perfectly fine.  She latched right on and held onto my finger to begin nursing.  My dad & Parker showed up like 10 min later. haha.  And everything was perfectly fine, epideral wore off when it was suppose to, no issues from past deliveries..nada!  it was perfect :)  I enjoyed my time in the hospital being catered to...:) 

 Had lots & lots of visitors and was ready to go on home Wed, June 12th. 

 The hardest day for us- was Thurs the 13th.  Just adjusting with the 3 kids...and the pain of being engorged waiting for my milk to come in.  My pump unexpectedly breaking :(:(:(  Thankfully, they say- the more kids you have, the faster your milk will come in...and that next day, (yesterday) it did...i am SOOO relieved & feel a THOUSAND times better!!! She's an excellent nurser.  There are always the ups and down to it all, but i've realized from experience that I would MUCH rather nurse than have to pump.  So my goal, is to nurse her for a good solid 6 months..and the only time I'd like to pump would be for 1 of 3 reasons 1- we're leaving her with someone 2- I'm leaving the house without her 3- to get the edge off...if i need that relief and either she has just eaten or is too sleepy to wake up.  

I am a little nervouse when Steve starts work on Monday---which is either super chill and relaxed anyways b/c it is just a matter of him getting a page, and him leaving the house OR go a full day without pages at all OR lots of pages and him being gone alot. So we shall see what happens.  

Right now Jordynn seems to be a big time snacker-  I'm trying to pin point with nursing her for a full 20 min..why it is she wants to eat again just an hr or so later.  I see those being the times that will be hard to tend to 2 other kids, maybe it's just like that right now...?  She's just hungry as a newborn and after some time, will go longer increments of time without wanting to eat again.  I'd like there to be a 2-3 hr break in between.  So we'll have to see how that goes.

 But the boys are so chill as it is anyways, & with Peyton being able to go to the bathroom on his own now anyhow...i think it'll be okay.  Steve can always wait on his pages till later on in the day when they are taking naps to leave the house as well...so that would be ideal too. 

 Anyways, all is well.  The boys are out at Country Fest (SO JO days) today and i've just been chilling with baby Jordynn.  She has already brought such a sweet spirit in to our house.  I feel like she's just so delicate, i don't know if i feel that way b/c she's a girl..haha..i dunno.  It's just so sweet...and I am so floored by her beauty :)  She's by far the most gorgeous baby girl i have ever seen :)   

i just love her to pieces & love how much her big brothers love her too & how much they want to hold & to be around her :)  
A big thank you for Laurie & Bill for taking the boys for us!

Thanks for reading :)

 June 10th @ 11:41 am 19 inches long 7 lbs 15 oz

probably the last prego update.......:)

I'm at 38 weeks!!!

 Lots of family members have been placing bets that tomorrow- Sunday, the 2nd would be the Day!  We shall see!  I'm just thrilled I made it to June!  I've been having contractions on and off for over a week now- and thought for sure it could have happened in May.  But I'm glad it didn't!  I was hoping for a June baby, everything seems to work out better that way!  I also love that in our lil family we have birthdays in May, June, July & Aug- all summer months!  and then there's me in the fall haha

I have an induction date for Monday, the 10th.  At the moment, I'm not that positive that I'll be able to hold out that long.  After having 2 babies that came on their own at exactly 39 weeks on the dot as well as for my doc to have told me last Tuesday, that he thinks he'll be seeing me in before the next appointment....I'm not that convinced that I'll hold out that long.  BUT....then I have moments when I'm like..."well...maybe?"  

I do really like the idea of it all being so planned.  I remember waking up with Bradyn the morning of his induction date & just loving everything being so set in stone, everything so relaxed & prepared..and then going in and realizing I was already in labor haha!  that was convienent! Steve's parents are gonna be in town this upcoming Fri, the 7th- I would like it if they could get here in time.  :)

 I'm just looking forward to this being one big party & a celebration that we got our Girl!:)  I'm looking forward that we are now in a location where so many friends & family can celebrate with us :)  Everything has been packed for a few days now.   As far as the transitioning factor going from 2 to 3...I'm actually not that worried about it at all.  I feel like it'll be very do-able.  Mostly b/c Steve's schedule allows for him to be at home a lot.  But then again, there are times where he is gone for 8 plus hrs a day, but I think it'll be fine. Peyton has begun taking 2-3 naps daily..which will be a big help for me.  And Steve has ALWAYS been one to help with rotations feeding the baby at night.  So I think we'll be fine.  Ever leaving the house, sure seems like a task that will take awhile to get use to...geez.  I can't imagine doing it on my own with 3 kids & 3 flights of stairs.  So....if you don't see me for a loooong time, you'll know why ha.  Anywho, yay for a june baby!  It's all on her timing now (pretty much has always been :)) lol

Peyton is 4!

Our little Peyton isn't too little anymore!  He's FOUR!  

We celebrated his birthday at Chuck E Cheese.  On the day of his birthday we went to the Zoo.  And in a few days we are going to the SLCC Bees game.  We love our little birthday traditions.  

How can you not make a birthday fun & exciting?!  

At his doctor's office they have you fill out a questionnaire & in areas of communication, gross motor, fine motor, problem solving, and personal-Social--the most you can score is a 60.  And he scores between 50-55 in each of them. 

 His doctor can't believe how TALL he is.  He says he's his tallest 4 year old patient & his programmed to be very tall :)  

Peyton continues to go to Pony Express Elementary once a week for 20 min for speech.  They are in the process of testing him to see if he qualifies to continue going there.  If his test scores are high enough, then he tests out of the school district and can start going to a Toddler talking time preschool once a week.  Along with Learning Dynamics, which begins in August that he'll be going to 2 days a week.  But if his test scores are not high enough, then the school district would like to keep him for another full year.  His doc thinks it would be awesome if he does not test out and stays with the school district.  I'm fine with whatever.  His therapists at the school think his issue is not language, it's articulation.  When he's wanting to form a phrase that is 3 plus words, it becomes jumbled & confusing.  His doctor thinks boys get so excited that their mouths are not catching up with their brain..and that oftentimes it can happen and that it's something he'll have to slow down and articulate what his brain is wanting to say.  So.....I feel pretty good about things :)  He did have his kindergarten shots today.  I had a choice to wait untill he's 5, but his doc thinks in pre-school he'll be exposed to all the same things so we went ahead and did it today.  He's recuperating on the couch, poor guy!  

In my last blog post, i had mentioned how he's done with potty training.  Still going that way.  When he's home he just goes in himself about 90 percent of the time.  Occasionally if its been too long, I need to remind him to go in or to just take him in.  He's been pretty good about being out in public in just underwear.  I think he needs a little more practice in realizing that bathrooms are everywhere and to communicate to me when he needs to go, so I can take him to one rather than thinking he's just suppose to hold it untill we are actually home.  I still have a little anxiety when we are outside the house, if an errand is taking longer than a few hours. But within time, it'll get better :)  

Turns out Soccer out here is cancelled for the summer, bummer.  :(  But he does start swimming with his uncle parker in just a couple of weeks.  Waiting for our pool to open.  We want him to be swimming independently without floaties by September :)  

In other news, I am 36 weeks TOMORROW!!! yay!! I am on to weekly appts, and she has dropped.  My doc felt her head :)  He thinks she won't be anymore than 7.5-8 lbs and thinks it's possible I'll go full term.  I'm just planning on going on my own at 39.  B/c that's how it's worked out twice now.  If i go over 39- I'll think about setting an induction date depending on how I feel.  Next week, i hope to get an ultrasound by Steve so we can get a weight on her and see where she is at.  (again, really not wanting a C-section or my tail bone to break, so we are wanting to make sure she's not going over 8.5 lbs) I'm feeling good.  It hurts very badly to walk anywhere....my hips and ligaments in my pubic bone are KILLING me.  Kids haven't been too much of trouble for me.  I haven't felt I am to the point where my hands are in the air and I'm saying "I'm done!"  yet.  So we'll see how it all goes.  When Steve is gone all day long, as long as I'm getting at least a 20-40 min nap in, then I'm fine.  If I have not that day, I'm an emotional wreck when he comes through the door.  Even if Pey hasn't napped, I manage to take a nap while he's playing pbskids on the computer.  

Just so crazy to think in 3 weeks we could have another baby!!! I'd like to have more time to my thoughts so i can mentally prepare more.  Spend some time in her room daydreaming, packing my bag, making a list of instructions for my boys to give to my in-laws, etc.  Just doesn't feel quite real yet.  We're ready.   But I'd like to think more about it.  haha.  The plan is is that my in-laws (hopefully we will time it right) will be here to take care of the kids while I am in the hospital.  Once I am out of the hospital, Steve will continue to have a full week of work & his clinical hrs off.  Once that week is over and he has to be back, then my mom will take the boys prob 2-3 days a week(broken up) and watch them untill she leaves for Lake Powell & Alaska.  When she comes home, she may be taking the boys a couple of days a week still ...depends on how I feel.  

Anyways, I think that's all for now.  Thanks for reading :)

STATS:

WEIGHT: 33.07 LBS--- 24.7 PERCENT

LENGTH: 42 INCHES---82 PERCENT

BMI: 13

To Jordynn

(Note: may be cheesy :))

Dear Jordynn, 

While I was pregnant with your two brothers I wrote them letters, this one is for you :) 

We really can't wait for you to come into our lives.  Your mommy LOVES that you have not just one...but TWO older brothers who are waiting to be by your side in life.  

To guard & protect you :)  Their names are Peyton and Bradyn. Mommy and Daddy chose your  name b/c we wanted you guys to be our P,B & J- our perfect, close yummy sandwhich haha!

I'm so happy that our family has turned out this way and that you get to have two older brothers.  

Every doctor & nurse that I have met have told me "Two boys & then a girl is the perfect situation.."  I have a feeling they are right :)  The things we wait for in life, are the best things..and after 2 crazy boys...your mommy has SURELY waited :)  

Your daddy always knew it was you to come.  When thinking of increasing our family, we prayed each night asking heavenly father to bring us our daughter.  We are so happy that that prayer was answered.  

Your mommy & daddy wanted to  make sure that you and your brothers would be close in age for many many reasons.  We hope to see those benefits come to pass as the years go by. 

 Everyday your two brothers play on top of you...haha...oh, get..ready!  lol.  They blow raspberries on Mommy's tummy and are so curious as to when you will come.  

You will see your grandma & grandpa devey very often.  You will be their 7th grandchild.  On that side of the family, you have 1 boy cousin named Carter& will have 3 girl cousins- Brittlyn, Brynlee & Sierra.  On your daddy's side is grandpa & grandma Wilson, they live in Colorado--you have the special priveledge of being the very FIRST grand daughter :)  You have a lot of live up to with that title now :) You have 2 boy cousins Kale & Krew on that side.  

Your mommy loves to have fun & do fun things.  There will always be fun activities to do, always.  Your mommy & daddy love to do many different activities. 

Mommy & Daddy have perfected your room.  Your room is/was our way of expressing so much excitement for you.  We are so happy to have had the space to have made you the perfect room. 

 Your daddy will be so soon from finishing a very...long..road of education by the time you come.  His higher level of school will grant him the ability to have so much time for us to spend as a little family. 

 We are so anxious to see what you will look like.  Your 2 brothers look VERY different from one another.  

With how much heartburn you've been giving mommy, we are expecting your hair to be to your shoulders! haha!  j/k.  but really.....Tums are Mommy's BF.  PS. please tell Daddy it's ok if we buy you a new headband every month :) haha
Your daddy can perform ultrasounds, so we are able to peek in on you at any time we'd like. 

Your mommy & daddy love to do things to help people and are very loyal to those whom we are around.  

Your mommy has (almost) made the decision to create your blessing & baptismal dress out of your Mommy's wedding dress--so it's x-tra special for you. :) 

 Soon after you're born, your first trip will be to Saint George as well as Disneyland..oh we will have so much fun.  Mommy can't wait to take you to Disneyland again when you are 5- to dress you up as a princess for a day.  :)  

We just can't wait to kiss every inch of you. At the moment, we can't seem to make up our minds on a middle name.  It will either be Brooke, Kate, or Taylor.  Maybe you should pick for us?  

 See you in 6 short weeks my love!

Your Mommy (brooke)

bragging....bragging...my steve :)

SO i think every now and then..it's TOTALLY fine for a wife to brag a little bit about their hubby.  And let me just say this post is waaaaaaaaay...overdue :)  So many things have come to my attention and have happened in the past little while, that I am literally left saying to myself...."wow..i lucked out:)"  

I think most, if not all my friends have a statement that is said quite often about Steve and that is "what the freak!  where DID you find him?"  It's always been a statement that I smile about..but I am to the point now where I am like..no for real, I DID luck out :)

I think one of the biggest things that I LOVE about Steve is ever since the first day of meeting him- i knew he had goals.  Not just words were coming out of his mouth, but I knew there was a drive to back it all up.  I was raised the "old-fashioned" way that if you want money in this life & want security..you go to school.  No ifs, ands, or buts about it...you GO to school.  For me, education was always appealing.  Not only had I had the great opportunity to do so, but after realizing what I was interested in..I went for it.  I don't have the personality to do things half way.  And I knew how much it would bless my life as well as my childrens to be a college graduate...whether I would use it or not (grateful to say that I have) but that it would bless me & would be for my good. 
 Anyways, with Steve is that it seemed he felt the same from day one.  School isn't an option.  In his mind, it is a commandment & that it was something he knew he just had to do.  There hasn't ever been a time where I have had to convince him to go, or have had to question his goals.  He just knew what he expected of himself..and just went about doing it.:) 
 Steve is at the halfway point of his ultrasound program.  And we're excited for these days to be a distant memory, and for the focus to be only work.  To have just ONE focus!  crazy!  
Another thing I love about Steve is his willingness to help as a parent.  I don't think I've ever met someone where being a dad has just been natural.  He always knows what exactly he needs to do and how to do it without me EVER having to tell him.  Being a father and a mother, i think should be equal roles...and i think Steve believes that and portrays that more than ever.  He will do WHATEVER it is to make sure that I am Always happy, no matter what it is.  Just any little thing even relating to parenting or being a dad..is just so natural for him---changing diapers, wiping up throw up, wiping runny noses, feeding, dressing them warm when it's cold outside, teaching the ABC'S, investing every minute into potty training with me, the list goes on and on and on.  I know he craves to be home with Peyton and Bradyn more than ever.  He never complains about needing to do things, or needing to be out and way from us..not once. never. ever. ever.  I'm just so grateful for him, and that I married a very self-sufficient. well-balanced man :)
 Another thing I love about him is how much he loves and adores my friends.  He really does.  He has fit himself into my friends so well.  Why? Because he knows I love them, and wants to love them to. Not once after being married do i think-crap, will i ever see my friends again?  will he be okay with me seeing them?  Wow, it's been so the opposite.  His priorty from Day 1 has been to be good friends will my friends and their hubby's. I SO lucked out with that, I see so many hubbys out in the world who would not care as much or invest so much time in relationships as Steve has done.  And he's so sincere about them too.  

 I just love him and have already seen so many dreams come true in my life during these past 4 1/2 years..just so excited to see more wonderful things to come...and never do I need to fear or feel any sort of anxiety..b/c I know Steve is there & that he knows exactly what to do.  

love you bebe :)

32 wks

So with my last post, I spoke of having a UTI and a kidney infection.  So...pretty much the meds for the infection kept making me throw up so they had me get a naseau pill to go along with it.  Well, i took the naseau pill a couple of times and then was too scared to take the infection meds again, so...i just didn't.  And i've been just fine. Steve thinks it was a poor choice, but i was just too scared of those Satan pills! 

Anyways, Steve did an ultrasound today--and at this point the baby should be over 4 & she weighs over 5.  And was told I am meauring as 33 in a half weeks rather than 32.  I'd prefer to go as long as I possibly can.  I'm not interested in being induced.  I have mixed opinons about being induced. Yes, convenient..but it's hard to not see it as selfish as well.  I did have an induction date with Bradyn, but when I went in, i just started on my own & I guess was already in labor.  So, I'm not interested in being induced UNLESS, it's obvious that she'll weigh more than 8'7.  My doc with Bradyn told me that if he had been more than that then my tailbone would have broken or I would have had a C section.  Pretty sure, in that instance, I'd prefer to be induced than have to go through either of those events.  So yeah...heartburn is horrible.  I guess I should be grateful that I'm not one of those girls that gain in the hips and legs and arms when prego...but...the downside is that, it's pretty painful to be carrying the weight without added cusion.  My hips & pelvic girdle usually always hurt, but I know it's that way especailly becasue of the over-active lifestyle I had being prego with Bradyn..i was warned...and I failed to adhere..so...i now have very weak ligaments..but i think that's about it.

I am going to include my PT #4-

I think he's ALL DONE!  I really do!! We started Jan 1st and i think i begain feeling like it was all done like mid April.  I can't recall the last time he had an accident.  He goes in without us there when he needs to go and comes out.  He doesn't care about stickers or candy anymore at all. The only thing I guess i have slight hesitation---is that he really hasn't had enough "public restroom/friends" bathroom experience yet for me to feel like I could leave him somewhere for several hours and that he'd do it himself...or that I could take him outside the house for several hours.  So, I think to accomplish not feeling the anxiety is just with practice and experience.  Just to continue carting him everywhere in his undies and hope for the best.  

Loves!  

fullest intentions

Today I couldn't help but think of Saint George.  Our lil' family's heart just aches for how much we miss that place.  For the past few months now, now that we've been in Eagle Mountain for a year...I've been thinking about our plan and what is the next step for us.  To get my thoughts in order & to clear my mind I thought to write a blog post on the topic. 

 After a lot of thought- I do believe that we have the FULLEST intentions of making it back to Saint George, to build a home, our lil' dream house...and to be there for good.  I do belive that if we made the move back, and if all fell into place- we'd be there for good.  There's just something about that place, that just made everything clicked & where I felt dreams came true.  The warm weather, the gazillion locations for outdoor play, small town feel, pools, etc. 

It is kinda weird to think that this place we are in now, has all our friends & family in one place...yes, that is true...but sometimes- i've learned that it isn't about the place where you have the best social life, it's the place that just fits...i'm not saying it's a For sure thing that we will move back, there are a lot of things that would need to workout.  But if it does, I know it'd be the right & best thing for us.  If those things didn't workout to get us there, well- then wherever we end up, we'll make that place our home, just like we've done here.  I think once we know officially where we will end up for good, is where i think we'll make most of our effort in establishing a good network of neighbors & those whithin our ward and community as "our friends"  I've felt like b/c every place we've lived, has always been temporary, that we've just relied on those friendships that we've built in the past to carry us through.  And i think it's worked great.  

So what's our plan?  Well as many of you know, Steve graduates this December as an ultrasound tech.  But before he graduates, like in September- we'd like to have a good idea if he is staying with his X-ray mobile company OR going to get a job at a hospital.  He will begin researching and speaking to his company (who also offers mobile ultrasound) IF the pay is better with his job now OR if working at nearby hospital would pay better.  Not only does the pay play a big role in this decision, but also knowing that if he were to quit this job now, it would mean another car to get.  BUT knowing that he wouldn't be ON CALL 24/7 anymore..and knowing that it would be a set shift, with set hours daily....ah!!! soooooouuuunnndssss....so great.  Plus, not only would he be on call for X-ray still but also ultrasound, meaning a lot more time getting called in, but of course that means more mula. So I see advantages/disadvantages on both ends. The thing is though, we kinda already pretty much realize what the choice will be...and that is Steve's job now, he's paid as an X-ray tech would in Vegas (since the Co. is based there) & it is more...alot more...than an X-ray tech would be paid at a hospital in Utah.  So...we kinda have an idea that the higher paying choice may just be his job he has.  But I think I'd be fine with continuing on.  So really, it all just comes down to the pay.  In September, is when we'd like to make that choice, before he graduates..knowing what we'll do.  So, our plan was to stay in our condo for 3 years.  So, that upcoming next year, probably the same time again (sept) our decision will be:  Is staying in this job we have now better paying than moving to Saint George and getting a job there?  I'm pretty sure at that point Steve will begin applying & interviewing down there, so he can get a feel for what the pay would be like, and if it would be worth it to us to make the move.  At that point, we hope to have a very large down payment set aside for building a home.  So if he's given a job & it pays even the same or a little bit more as we will have already been receiving- we'd totally make the choice to go.  Especially b/c once my kids are in school, I have full intentions of going back to Biggest Loser (if this plan worked, Jordynn will have just turned 2)   So if that's the route we'd take than at our 3 year mark in our condo, we'd begin building in Saint George..may take up to 6 mos, I don't know, find renters (who i think I'm positive we could find someone who'd pay well over what we pay now monthly) and once our house is ready and if it all plays out well with timing of his job...MOVE!  And I see that move being our "this is our home for good, for a very very long time..." but if that doesn't happen, then we will still be moving at our 3 year mark, renting out our condo & building in Daybreak.  (seems to be our favorite location)

We shall see... I like that we always have a next step to take, another goal to accomplish...and at that time if Steve would like to specialize within another area and go back to school, fine by me.  The more specializing is done, the more money in our pocket :)  

So that's our plan :)